Missing Days Of HapPiness

下雪了

2010-12-02T01:08:00.004+08:00

Iowa State University Campanile (Winter)

十二月的雪飘飘洒洒地临到艾尔瓦~
又过了一年。。。

站在巴士站，大地白皑皑一片，树木枯泠泠无叶，周围行人的步伐都显得缓慢，这个画面就如小时观看异国影片的相似~
这一年我到底成长了多少~ 慢慢地我也已经不再称我自己为小孩。。是时候摆脱那儿时无忧无虑的阶段。。再见了“少年”。。因我必须。。。。《沉默》风声轻轻吹在我脸上~ 《微笑了》。。。

这是缓缓移动的巴士来了、《走》。。回家吧。。
望着窗外的雪景，暖流悄然间潜入心扉~踏雪寻梅，已成我梦中的童话~ 心里也顿时有了许多想念~

你那里“下雪了”吗？

End of Korean Class (Fall Semester)

2010-11-29T11:42:00.001+08:00

Anna Kye and Me!

应变

2010-11-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

人真的要学会应变，包容，体谅，及谦卑！！仰望主吧！Some people just won't listen to the advice and giving up the effort to change when others had been tolerate and advise them for so long~ Stubborn, Arrogant, Self-centered, Inconsiderate!! So sick of those people, Unfortunately they appear to be the person around me... Goshh, Why don't you just LISTEN?!?! LISTEN LA!!! LISTEN!!!! 我已经厌倦扮好男人~ 极限了！！我表面看起来无事开心，BUT！！！When they still relent to their terrible manner, 我活得特不爽！但又不想说难听的话，搞到关系那么僵~ 咳~ 真是可怜的生物~ Think of Yourselves and Others!!! 是时候给你脸色看了！教训你一下！Let you understand what is the right way of living harmony together in the community~ XP
主啊，教导我如何能更像主所喜悦的人懂得去爱他人~ 惟有单单依靠主。。=D

(PS: 发泄下！！! 但爱不会熄灭！！！ )

Korean Bazaar

2010-10-18T01:19:00.001+08:00

Well, i and couple of chi gu were invited by korean classes' friends to come for the korean bazaar which basically sold food to raise fund for the church and community service...The food was awesome! Got the chance to taste their traditional specialty... i forgot what are the name of the food.. but i remembered i dropped down somewhere in my notes.. Overall it was a great moment to hang around~ =)

Malaysians: (left behind- chloe phoon, yuting, me, chris, racheal, Johnny-took pic)

要变有型哟！

2010-10-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

近来我特想为自己设计一下造型，从头到尾，无论是穿着，发型，和身型都要一一改变~
可能是因为是青春年少时期，总是认为这 period应该要最甜美，开心，勇敢，愚笨，但却不后悔，充满无限乐趣的回忆~ 我依然记得我的属灵前辈(Bro昌盛) 对我说：“趁你还在求学的时候，大胆地去梦想吧！” To be honest, i always want to involve myself in entertainment field, instead of human science field. I really enjoy myself learning and playing the music instrument~ singing and acting~ I feel alive and meaningful when i hold a piece of instrument... There is no distraction, only peace, calm, god and music around me...everything around me seem so quiet and harmony.. Sound weird right? =) Oppss..time to share my favor song recently~ it's sweet。。Hope you guys enjoy.. One last sentence, 年轻人啊!!!去吧!!! 尽情享受青春梦幻时光吧!!! 人生是你的!!! WOOO!!! ^o^

Do you hear the voice of earth?

2010-10-16T09:33:00.002+08:00

I had attended a seminar call "Sustaining life on a Tough Earth" by Bill McKibben, a well known speaker, founder of 350.org and environmental author. Basically he addressed on the issues of climate change and its impact on agriculture. He urged for immediate public's participation in charging and improve our world by just starting from small action like...blalalala...(i kinda 4gt what he said). But the talk was just inspiring and received huge response nationwide. Our University Great Hall was crowded of hundreds people!

Here are some intriguing and terrible fact he pointed out:

"The summer 2010 was the most brutal that the northern hemisphere has ever seen, one that gives a good foretaste of what climate change looks like in its early stages."

He also discussed the massive flooding and temperatures that were recorded internationally. From the 12 feet of rain in Pakistan, compared to its average 3 feet, to the eight days in August where Moscow experienced record temperatures of 100 degrees, which had never been recorded in the city's history and caused them to stop export the grains due to short of supply and severe drought. Moreover, if the severe flood is happening occasionally in particular areas every few months, it dramatically give the food supply and economics a big strike! THERE WILL LESS AND LESS FOOD SUPPLY each year!!!

i quote this phrase from iowastatedaily.com

"A major factor of the increased rainfall is that the atmosphere holds more water vapor than ever before. Currently, there has been four-and-a-half to five percent more moisture in the past four years, which leads to increased precipitation. This has caused the flows of rivers and streams around the world to increase by 10 percent."

It seem that the world is really sick! But where is the response of government legislation to this issue? (lack of political action - fossil fuel industry) if you noticed in 350.org , it can be seem that some people across the world are ready to contribute and voice their concern to climate changes. We should really start to give serious thought of it~ before we lost the beauty the earth used to have~

做人难？

2010-10-14T10:26:00.003+08:00

做人难？我该把它当成一个问题还是一个答案 ~ 累啊！好人难当，义人难存，爱人难找，贵人难攀，女人难懂，男人难做！！！

帅气点吧，说你难靠，不帅吧，女人看不上；个子高了，说不适合，个子矮了，等于残废；身材瘦小，说太软弱，身材肥胖，说靠边站；活泼点吧，说你不正经，稳重点吧，说你未老先衰；注意穿着，说你同性恋，不修边幅，说你土包子；爱社交，说你花心，沉默点吧，说你自闭症；挣大钱吧，担心高攀，挣钱少吧，说你没出息~ 天啊！我要哭了!!!
发泄一下！！！！
你啊(those who're reading!) ，我到底要怎样才能做到你们满意？ =）Give some comments~
有时，想想，若我能是一个精彩浪漫戏剧的男主角就好~
PS：人需要神的爱~ 因神永不离弃。=）

淡蓝色的回忆

2010-10-04T14:09:00.000+08:00

Cheers for a blessed day!

The summer season has gradually passed and the chill of the winter is cooling down the mother earth. I just enjoying sauntering or driving around the campus compound while glancing at the colorful deciduous trees. Many always thought that Autumn has often been associated with melancholy,

I would say it is a season that makes you feel blessed with a sense of appreciation..

as the atmosphere always lead your thought to your beloved one

bring back the old memories...

Time to flip through the photo album..

well~ not sad, but joy, lively, and excited...maybe a little bit emotional

Looking up at the blue and yellowish sky when a flock of swam flew through

i wonder when will be the next time i meet all of them..or thr is not more chance?

I am all the way at the other side of the corner, separated from each of you guys. Only destination will lead us the way to the meeting point~ Only at that time, i can hug each of you and say

"GOOD TO SEE YOU AGAIN!" =)

I would like to share one advice with you, which is what i learned from my past rich experience..

Once in a while, you may hear a guy saying,"show me a man who will work and i will show a success." and I WOULD SAY, "you show me a man who will say that, and i will show you an idiot." Work (Study) in itself won't do anything. You may notice that why some people work(study) hard like hell and never have anything to show for it? and yet some people don't seem to work(study) and they have great results..... It is all about your mind set and attitude.. Life is not about what you like to do, but rather what you ought to do~ Don't ever wish all the things will follow your will!! You should be the one who adapt to it, regardless of any situation. Got excited about your job or education!! Don't ever think there is such thing as "the job i love to do"..IT DIDN'T EXIST!

If i can get excited about it while it's miserable, it's going to be tremendous if ever gets pleasant!

PS: 不是寂寞了才想你，而是想你了才寂寞

web pages under construction

2010-09-29T06:18:00.000+08:00

Will be published with brand new appearance soon`

不是我不明白

2010-06-18T09:25:00.001+08:00

说真的，我并不是你们所想象的强者。。更不是那些能够在一个星期内hit President Club ($4000 to $5000) 的rookie。。你们每晚通过电话给于我的问候，不时让我活在极大压力和紧迫情绪当中~ Every Sunday, there is always mix feeling while i had drive to lumberton for company meeting... well, first of all, i am extremely excited to meet all the friends and talked about the wildest experience we ever had in our life..however, when it came to sale ranking, my excitement is abating...I felt ashamed, depressed and frustrated when i can't meet the expectation of you guys.. HOWEVER, wat i can guarantee you..i did try my best to set up and close "Mrs Jones" ~ Yet it isn't EASY...i gave up all ..sometimes external factors like shitty US economic, massive unemployment, education level and nature deviant attitude of those people, had been huge obstacles for me to reckon with.. especially the White folks (Number one enemy~ super hard to approach..they are too skeptical). Sometimes i only earn $100 profit each day...can hardly even achieve $500 to $1000 sale per day.. i really Try my best...now i can only put my hope and faith on God to lead me to the glamorous and strong endings..=) This internship had cut down my connection to outer world~ Miss most of my friends and family...Sarawak gangs, Kl gangs, Church gangs, Piggies, Ladies Gangs, Foreign country gangs, Iowa Gangs, Bookman Gangs!!!! HOW ARE YOU DOING?！！！

PS: 好想剪头发，好想吃一场家常菜，好想再享受一回好友的欢乐时光，好想赚大钱，好想好好睡一觉，好想来一个美梦，好想再一次恋爱，好想做个好男人，好想与你眼神交目的瞬间，好想与你相遇，好想说一声我爱你

GROWTH

2010-06-09T03:46:00.000+08:00

Driving a distance of average 130 miles everyday and meeting almost 20 people a day... wasn't as fun as i thought. Loneliness is killing me sometimes. In this large county with only one chinese working around here, make me feel like in the alien world. Never in my life, i thought i can deal business with americans or african americans (black ppl). Never in my life, i thought i can be so powerful and determined to impress other people. Of coz, never in my life, i thought i will slam the door on my face by some nasty folk. hahhaha!!! WHAT's a unique and interesting life experience.
I really miss Ames/ Malaysia and all my friends/family from all different places now. Wish to give all of you a big hug and kiss when able to meet u guys again. Man, still got two more months to bear. I really looking forward for the wonderful ending of 2010 summer break and OF COURSE THE COMPANY TRIP TO the famous beach in US on 14 August!!! (4gt the name). Until then, i guess i have work hard to strive for $24000 these 3 months!! FIGHTING!!!! Although i didnt express to u, but yes, i miss you very much!!! Love you!

我的观点

2010-03-25T12:52:00.000+08:00

回想，这几年（至今），我常因为个人意见，主见不同有差异，让他人以及我在那一瞬间显得情绪化，气氛变得有点僵。It is not because i am being stubborn, self centered, immature or whatever terms one can describe their "friendly"opponent. You notice i stated "friendly opponent" as we did not really offend or quarrel with others meanly. Yet to convince or persuade others that our personal points of view which we believe they are correct.

(TO someone out there)..Maybe you think i am not being good learner to listen what you're trying to say or follow your rules of life. But let me tell you ..YUP...YOU!!!..something~ i know the meaning of life better than you~ Even though you are older or younger...it does not make any different as regardless who you are...you're just living in a small box of world..can hardly observe or sensitive to the greater value of life. In short, i just wanna to point out that each of us are varied in own perspectives, belief and life value so RESPECT others..instead of forcing them to suit your shoes or get mad at them when they tend to against or deny your words... Guess what, no matter how many times you complain of your pessimism and hoping us to follow your will. I AINT GONNA DO THAT TO DEPRECIATE MY WAY OF LIVING A LIFE!! Cause i felt happier to act according to my own perspectives~ even it means you are more experience and older. But who care... i am who i am... don't try to judge, teach me with your personal value... i only feel the joy and peace when i did what my heart urged or guide me..which i believe there is a MIGHTY, mercy God living in me...你不同意我的观点，我已经习以为常了~这个习惯却令我活得更快乐，有意义。。。

a small prayer

2010-03-14T14:28:00.000+08:00

春假开始了~因为internship training，assignment 及其他私人因素，假期这段期间也没有多余游玩。。可悲可悲~ 近来虽然学业都还不错，但生活却显得毫无规律，乱七八糟。。
而且许多事情都很不顺利~ 叹息着。。。真的超MALANG的！！！！个人生活变得太乏味，没有些乐趣。。再一次。。可悲可悲可悲呀~
list of things did not go well recently:
1. My accomodation
2. My guitar
3. My brain (not working hard enough..being lazy)
4. My relationship
5. My shoe
6. My car purchase
7. My plan trip, My yamcha, My dating
8. My stupidenglish narrative writing assignment

（PS：in fact, it is not that bad ...just not as fun as i used to have.. and my spiritual life is dying...seriously lost and struggle to find back my passion and faith---> participate in real church ministries...i want to be filled with joy and love of God forever more.)
On this age of 20, I just cannot stop thinking about my potential achievement, my goals, my social networking, my girlfriend, my future life partner, my religious life and.... what if i really step onto the wrong pathway... is there any chance God will lose faith on someone whose love passion to Thy had abated...every day and night.. i try to gain insight picture of my future...IT IS LIKE EMPTY BOTTLE.. I SEE NOTHING~ ... I start to feel anxious,insecure, and worry... Where is my huge confidence and perspective that i used to hold tightly onto??

God, i pray that you guide and bless me and those who seek for you and in desperate need..for it is you who make us; and we are yours, we are Thy chosen people, the sheep of your pasture. May your kingdom come~ i pray all this in Jesus Name, Amen.

Season in the sun~ Spring Break!

2010-03-10T13:41:00.004+08:00

Now i guess everyone is planning for Spring Break Getaway, perhaps they already did. Chicago, Minnesota, Minneapolis, California, New York~...should be a great destination!!I am still deciding what will the best/wise plan for this precious holiday ..after all i am now at the NEW WORLD and a lot of stuff/ place are waiting for me to explore~ =)

On this very hour, i'm looking forward to lie on the grass field under the sunny blue sky!
Imagine..windy breeze..cosy surrounding...aroma of flower..bird chirping is heard

好想再一次恋爱~ 在这浪漫的季节
祈祷着。。为我未来的伴侣

Sunshine on my face~

2010-03-05T08:19:00.001+08:00

It starts to get warm in Ames now~ The snow is melting, the ground is wet, the birds are flying back home, the squirrel is climbing around the trees and I am excited and fulled of expectation with my first Spring season in United State!! New moment of joy to catch on my life~XD

Recently i will spend myself a couple of quiet minute standing outside my root balcony, watching the clean starry night while meditating God's words. By just staring at the endless tiny twinkle bright stars in the beautiful gradation of dark blue sky, it aroused a huge portion of my emotions. How far am i with my family and friends in other places now~ "Woo~never in my dream that i will make it to American, neither do my parents"

"Taking a deep fresh, cold air"

At that moment, i felt so alive~ how lucky am i to be able standing right here in the wooden, firm stairs

and enjoying the beauty of the nature...how i wish there is someone beside me.. accompany and witness together this wonderful scene that created by the Mighty One~ Praise to You

Miss Someone, Friends

...

I still alive...

2010-01-26T16:14:00.001+08:00

woo~ didn't realize two months had passed since my last post...MISS YOU GUYS!!!!
Recently, i study in Iowa State University, Ames (United State)...in case of you wan to keep abreast of my condition.. doing pretty well but not perfectly fine...burden by errand of tasks on the table...plus the freaking cold weather over here...next..getting tired walk to my major department everyday ..which is around 20 minutes walking distance from my small house...Goshhh~ in other word, i had woke up early in the morning each day to attend 8 o'clock class..To make it worse, there are always snow storm and icy floor to bear with... yet dun woorry.. i can still smile through the day... WHY??? secret... anyway i hope all you guys are having great semester and life experience in you own education institution... i should concentrate on my assignment now~ will update my status with some interesting stories together... PeACE out~ =D and

Little miracle in the world

2009-11-07T19:12:00.003+08:00

Recently i come along with a young but supremely talented 13 years old guitarist in youtube.com... a cute boy name Sungha Jung from South Korea..actually i heard since last year... it seem that his reputation as professional acoustic fingerstyle guitarist has drastically increasing in JUST THREE YEARS!!! Moreover, he is currently sponsored by Lakewood and play with few prominent guitarist like Mr Big, Ulli Bögershausen, tracy...At the beginning he not used to have tabs for the music that he played in his videos. He was self learned, just listen and picked them up directly from the sound source in videos available on the internet. He's totally rock and gifted!!! Can check his official website: Sungha Jung

there are few guitarist i wish to recommend for u to listen to.. like Masaaki Kishibe, Rynten Okazaki, Antoine Dufour n so forth! Their music may just touch your inner heart..

Mind out of Holidays

2009-11-03T22:11:00.010+08:00

A reminder as the christian
I still remember reading an article that written by Tim Gustafson in ODJ pointed out the only lack and the only precious gift in the world is "PEACE". A brilliant American actor and producer, Harrison Ford (if u don't know, he is the title character of Indiana Jones) 's career embodies success. His movie have earned him more than $6 billion US dollar. Ford made a albeit ungrammatical comment "You only want what you ain't got." in the interview. What he was trying to mention is that what he lacks of and wishes to pursuit is nothing else but "peace". Isn't it pathetic and contradict that a millionaire or billionaire can't find peace in their heart even with their status of high wealth. However, the bible clearly stated that real peace is indeed something that can not and will never obtain from anyone or anywhere, except from the only one, the only true God, Jesus Christ. Don't mind me, I am not being a religion fanatic. Yet it is indeed very factual. Believe me or not...Who can deny it? Let those who don't believe in God, Let those who always in anxious state, let those who try to challenge bible truth...ask themselves a simple question and see whether they can answer it confidently, "Deeply inside your heart, can you feel the peace?" As i can say it loudly and proudly that i CAN!!!

"I am leaving you with a gift," Jesus concluded, "peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid" (JOHN 14:27).

I am personally fond of this scripture. Maybe it's a bit abstract and difficult for some people to understand and come to the state of what i feel. but i hope that by writing down here, some readers may have the opportunity to know the wonder of my Savior, my Lord, my Jesus. Do remember the scripture!!! read it, remind urselves and repeat it again..again..again...
( There comes a time when our questions merely become a way of hiding from the risk and danger of disobedience. There comes a time when we need to silence the excuses or the fears and simply obey- the time is now...quoted from Winn Collier)
Sharing what i Like or D Like....

i Like-
1) Playing guitar... it always a good old companion ...the way i use to express my emotion and feeling..i could tell my very own story in a song to someone special.. it works quite well..haha.. i believe there is some magic stark happen when the soul of human thoroughly unite with the musical instrument.. Actually i always wish to become a musician or singer..haha..but apparently i'm not gifted to have such talent and opportunities to learn and perform on the stage..BUT I STILL LIKE IT!!!

2) Frisky and Awesome Party... After i stopped to carry out my night life activities (clubbing) for quite while, i realized how dumb were i wasting my precious time in a dark messy social club environment.. i could have attended other outdoor activities and party organized by my college friend... at least i wont have to spend so more money to get FREE food + FREE refreshment + FREE entertainment...=D

3) Fellowship/ Church... it is a place which i call "Second home" or "Restroom" .. Every time when i felt overloaded with burden and exhausted, i will walk to the church... i abase myself before lord in prayer...then restore or recharge myself either spiritually or mentally~ Sing the melodious church song, feel to be closer to God (eventhough i can also meditate n pray at home or anywhere)... the interaction n fun communication... the self development... the leadership... n of course the truth of life .... are what i gained from here..

4) The love...nearly two years didn't let myself to have a REAL one (not play play de)...within the periods, the "trials" came to naught.. however.. i do appreciated that within my social circle there are a lot of "choices" arranged by Lord... yet recently what i really fond of is the one with long brownish hair cascaded down over her shoulders...XD (No way, i am flying off to US soon.)
whenever she show a careworn expression, i ll be hoping to be thr, at least with a word of confront...SEEing her eyes brimmed with tears from long distance..my hands will consciously, nervously gently caressed her face... everyday i hope that i can carol happily to my precious one which hidden inside my secret garden "Lalala..i love you"... (==''') i want vomit liao..reading wat i type)..yet i really hope that one day, one moment, one chance that me and the destined one can get better acquainted ..

I Dislike-
1) frigid and frumpy GUY... it gt nthg to do with my religious teaching.. i just feel they are too "action", too ignorant and too irritating!! often being divert by their physical appearance...

2) Stupid lip synch video... as u can find mostly in youtube or facebook..those idiot try to be famous from their nonsense video...then they act stupidly, dress stupidly and talk stupidly... gt nthg better to do meh~ haiz..helpless and useless fella..

3) Rude and Emo Swing Harridan... nthg much to mention...as u know nowadays most of the girls are getting more "barbaric ...probably because more n more civil rule, law and regulations are made to protect women...n more young female teenagers are being SPOILED!! Totally don't have the right attitude of life!! Terrible~(i left other criticism for your own self)
Therefore, i am listed down some characteristics or qualification of my future partner

i) Must be a real christian (Not those who claim to be, but in fact they know nthg)
ii) Good manner (No F words came out from her mouth, Owes have the right attitude and thought about the way of living a meaningful life..know her life purpose well)
iii) know at least one skill or talent (singing, playing musical instrument, dance...)
iv) OF course ...love me!!XD

Life goes~

2009-10-05T18:48:00.007+08:00

~我长大了，不再是小孩子~

ps: one by one ..we are leading into different stories by God.. The timescale for completing it is approaching slowly
But the story ends well

Our corner of the world

2009-10-05T18:20:00.004+08:00

Lately i had been wondered

沉默一会儿

when the cases of earthquake, tsunami, and wars are rampant in other corner...
i am here taking my current circumstances as granted~
has a false perception that the victims and me are in two different world

when people are starving to dead because of hunger in other corner
i am here wishing for a life of luxury and reputable status
unconscious of the overflow blessing i have..
as a SINFUL HUMAN
in the world

when people struggle to survive with their handicapped & poverty condition
in other corner
i am here thinking how boring and meaningless life is
continuously involve in hollow activities
thinking what can be done to entertain myself more
in this world

indeed, it seem to be that those are not relevant to me..
However, in very own reality
We tempted to claim that life is unfair and cruel
love relationship, academic result, career, death,
it's so unbearable sometimes..blaming God, our fate

Maybe is time
for us to pull out of our pessimism
The question is not about whether difficult times will come but
what our response will be when they do
i always believe
God has his plan and makes our way
The challenge is to seek the goodness in the midst of whatever trials we encounter
(trust me.. i personally experience it)
beneath the temporary trials, there is always sweet honey waiting for us
you ll figure out God's brilliant plan on you
Have faith on Lord, Have plan on Life
Don't ask for miracle, Be the miracle yourself

~Stop your rushing path for a while~
take a real look on your current state

live a life with thanksgiving
Our corner of the world can be a reminder for us as a blessed children

八月闲日（二）

2009-08-25T20:23:00.011+08:00

论到民都鲁人打发时间方式和娱乐，大部分人（特别是年轻的）都会一致地说
“Yamcha lo！要不然就是去打电脑，或是去海边散步拍拖吃rojakABC。没事就CAll朋友到处走走或则是待在家发呆看astro” 当然我这Bintulu仔也是如此度过部分的假期。我几乎每天两餐都在外解决~胖了不少~ 成俊不再是排骨精了!!!

能有缘和几位日本来的交换学生相识，感觉很不赖。平时所学到的日语终算能派上用场。
Saikin? Ureshi? watashi oboeru?

有天晚上也与朋友陪那些JPNese去园游会和FunFair Park. 那些日本女生玩得可疯了，体力也太惊人了吧!!!

除此之外，我当然也约几个死党出来. 就像以上我所述说的，除了Yamcha还是Yamcha~
当然K bar, Tanjung Batu海边, 小学，中学学校也都从返了~真是让人一时有所感触
!!!!当中就让我惊喜的是!!!!
竟然我九年前画画比赛的作品(风景画）依然还摆设在某布告栏
虽然那是个未完成的杰作，但却被欣赏
太令人感动了T^T

八月闲日（一）

2009-08-24T22:54:00.008+08:00

好久没有来到这个分享空间~ 版主近来虽然心事重重及对某些事务人物感到无奈加上无力，
但日子还过得去。
没有特别精彩，没有特别鲜艳，没有特别有趣；
但生活中的新鲜感终没有让我失望，我相信这就是神在当中美好丰盛的恩典
终是在悲伤中找到喜乐泉源，终是在怨恨中找到原谅宽恕，终是在自卑里找到独特之处；
这样说，好像我日子都很不快乐，才不是呢!!!
先不淡荣华富贵，名胜古迹，我只能说对于我近来遇到的人与家庭，我应该知足。
After八月头的final exams, 我就冲冲忙忙地搭第二天的飞机场。。。
当天我认识的好一些人也去着同样的目的地，但到达的终点则是天地之差（美国民都鲁）

让我来分享一些我回到家乡所度过的假期，原本拍了些照片，
但怎知我回到KL，才发现我没有把照片输入到我的pendrive里
这时我只能叹气“Haihhhh..."

一回到家乡，行李还没放下，妈就带我去Pineapple餐馆（自家的）享用订好的菜肴~
还点了甜品和水果呢
早就知道这是要我这几天在店里帮忙的甜头~
就这样，我通常傍晚或晚上会到店里看美女店员及一些漂亮顾.......啊啊..
不不不..我是说我都会去做工~
不过，在店里时我很高兴能巧遇很久没联络的旧同学及各老板

此外，我也会被妈派到两间之前出租的屋子做“印尼工人” ...
因为要再renovate
打扫，收拾垃圾废弃物... 割草，除草~
一个人哦!!! 累死了而且这两间屋子感觉有点阴森~
特别其中一间，有点噱头，近期被警察突击搜索
~因为这黑社会租客被怀疑诱骗出卖女子肉体~
在收拾过程中，那龟公不时来搬取东西, 身旁还有些辣妹..可怜
besides, i manage to find some girls' dairies n photos on the garden n storeroom
even their clothes and other necessities...i took one of them to read..
it's written
"By Lord's will n grace,
i wish to fulfill my dream and buy a dream house for my parents after i reach here."
Haiz, i wonder how those girls doing now..all i know is when they reached here they are being locked in the room and..so on~
~GOD BLESS THEM~

我感到很惊讶因为过了六年这“卢”字依然还在

(待续）

给你好朋友～

2009-06-15T20:10:00.005+08:00

8.28pm now************* Date ~15june2009
Weather ~cold, breezy** Mood~ distress, low spirited, jubilant..it's contradiction

生活的历练给我的就是两个字"无奈".

无奈的环境,无奈的角色,

无奈的思念,无奈的责任,

无奈的等待.无奈的守侯.

我不要伪装自己,

我不要矜持,不要优雅,

在爱的面前我不能退缩.

我快乐,　一定要让你知道

我疲倦，心里有你来充电

你开心，是我每天的愿望

你难过，可以轻听我安慰

好朋友，谢谢你远方的祝福，　

因为你，我体会到幸福滋味

你的出现让我始料不及,

让我知道这世上还有可以懂我的人.
一辈子吧!!!

Expression of soul~
Some people struggle and work hard with zeal that earn them a name so revered and saluted...Some thought they are something yet in fact they are just little thing... Some people convinced themselves that they could make a fortune without effort...Some people who like to be controlled by their emotion (so called play emo)...Some people always act like a real prima donna and can't see how blessing and great life she or he has...Some people like to put themselves inside the box, giving plenty of excuses for their failure (such as "as long as i happy in my life")and thought it's a better way to escape the reality... finally the worst and irritating one would be Those who keep complaining...blame this and that...
I plenty sure that most of us would have met different kind of people with various personalities and attitude of life... probably few types that i mentioned...
Some of them may really raise our ire..and let us feel frustrated... thinking of why get this kind of ppl one...haiz..so pity...so immature... so stubborn... so piss me out!!!
Maybe there are something that we can do to alter their view or help them to become a better person... yet...in the end the effort will only met with failure and disappointment...
........Haiz........
But thr is a friend of mine enlightened me out... "why need to bother?....
we can't expect people around us to become an IDEAL man that WE think it is.. What we can do is to make ourselves an ideal person to others...instead of wishing others to change..."
It's very true...if all of us know what exactly are the wrong ways of living, then we just have to concern about ourselves and make sure that we live with right attitudes...in these ways we may have set a good example for others!!! But the first thing is u know ur own mistakes..

因为我领悟

2009-05-10T22:37:00.003+08:00

Greetings~again i didnt seem to keep my blog updated more than three weeks..
..thr is no much errand of task waiting in my desk..
..A week had passed since my new semester...
i had quite an awesome n relaxing outdoor vacation for my holidays
yet soon forced back to tedious and tiring reality
Time wont just stop for all of us take a break
as like we cant stop breathing

I guess i would just let it take me into future, through present, away from past
A wonderful moment will slip from our grasp before we realize
we can't hold it on tightly
but let it become memory which turn into a wave of nostalgia for us to recall

Omar Khayyam once quotes
"Be happy for this moment. This moment is your life"
Life brings endless of suspense, laughter and happiness for us
however life is also a perpetual "problem" which from time to time
we struggle to survive through it with less pain, more joy.
this statement seem to be nonsequitur with Omar's
what will i say is to enjoy this fleeting moment of life whether it's harsh or comfortable
most of the time people just bracket themselves
into a small box
thinking how pathetic and miserable their life are
(i referring to those are actually blessed with Good condition)
why can "you guys" stop that nonsense thought, be less pessimistic
sometimes i really feel like give you guys few slaps
they as if people in a island
can't go over bound their narrow mind
to see their greenish n charming surroundings as an dull place
without notice that
they are eventually nestles in the most beautiful island

How about we do something gradually
start from today
we try to be more appreciated and give thanks to what we been through daily
ever though that particular day may not be pretty

You will find yourselves less heavy laden, more alive!!!

(Today 10may2009 is Mother Day )
I wish all mummy another blessed and joyful year with their family
especially my own mother
Thanks you for everything! Love always!

ps: Happy Birthday to my friend, catherine too=)

放假去!!!

2009-04-16T12:32:00.005+08:00

快乐去游玩吧!!!

~只想像小时候般无忧无虑自由地奔跑，嬉游~

回归部落格

2009-04-15T16:13:00.012+08:00

Greetings!!
Apa khabar! Hajimemashite!!
嗨~~久违了
(~回归布落格~）

Time fly..through present...into past...so as my Jan semester... Exams just ended with Cal2 ppr in the terrible and pathetic way a few hours ago~ Nothing else can be done to fix it... yet where there is a will, there's a way...i wont cry for the split milk like a worthless being..（嗯，俊..这样才像个男子汉吗)

~My feeling now~
worry + relax = “我”relax
~(=,=''')V

With holidays approaching nearer n nearer, the subject that inadvertently cropped up among the peer conversation almost every times was what the ideal plan to spend these two weeks "precious" holidays.. ermm... yeahh... as usual...traveling is a must..(just within Malaysia)... let get a glimpse of my "mission"

假期策划
1) Going to LANG TENGAH ISLAND with bunch of friends next tuesday~ Beach~~~~ Then on the following week, A place in Tanjung Sepang will be my other destination...Imagine.. Seafood~ Crystal blue water~ white sandy beaches lined with swaying coconut trees~ Beautiful sunset~ lying on the sand beneath a myriad of stars at night~ cool breeze..savour hours of peace and transquility...ooppss..forgot about the beach girl...WAAAA...XD
2) Treat myself with some mouth watering, delicious dishes in restaurants which my friend promise to bring. I'd always had a penchant of delectable steaming,fried chinese dishes.
3) Meet 老友们 in cheras, setapak, wangsa maju, kota damansara,nilai, bukit jalil.
4) And probably following my friends back to their hometown...visiting^@^.
5) Date with "someone".
6) Learn five new songs and Read a novel.
7) Settle and carry on my obligation as church commitee well.
8) Barbering~ cut a new hairstyle.
9) Conduct some research on US unversities and decide the exact right pathway.
10) last but no least, make sure that i still manage to survive after these two weeks. God bless you and me!!

Reflect of the past...回想

Since last time i blogging, a lot of things happened and changed... People around me, my own self , my belief, friendship, and also the social interaction ~... i would say life can be so unpredictable and interesting resulting by some external factors... For instances, there were some "people" whom i wish to know but nvr thought of getting close to them long time ago... now we are like the thumbs and nails...always stick together... Meanwhile someone whom you once fond of..may turn out to be an irritating object... Perhaps it is a fate and the storylines "written" by the Divine God...amazing!! You just cant assume you are taking control of your present circumstances and future... Same thing apply to the attitudes we possess and have within us..
One imperative idealogy i realized is that no matter how many philosophy theories, methods of right thinking, and other knowledge we have bout our own self, without practising them through action it is nothing more but a dusty dictionary in the bookshelf.
It's useless to gain so much knowledge or think about achieving the greastest dream in mind without carry it out on action...Nothing vertured, Nothing gained...to reach a successful life is about taking risk to experience..

寂寞开在心思旁，随手种一些伤感
不让星星来窥探，找个沉默的夜晚
寄托希望遥远方，听听风儿轻轻寒
不让寂寞陪着旁，找个有你的夜晚

生活~

2009-03-17T20:56:00.004+08:00

早晨温暖的阳光普照着这全新的一天，能活着我感到很幸福

近来课业非常得繁忙，考试也陆续地逼近~ 每天一上完课，就带着沉重疲累的身子和朋友们一起在图书馆，Starbuck, Coffee Bean K书，尽我们最大的努力为自己未来铺更好的路。

厚厚的课本几乎让我不过气来，但是想到父母和往后的日子，顿时有了燃烧不尽的斗志!!!
FIGHTING!!!

看看，我学校最好的排挡多么勤奋，像小蜜蜂似的。不错,加油啊!!! Good Luck in Cal2~

我可怜的手~T^T... 你受苦了... 就迁就Emo的咏荷（Ajima)
“^@^死笨猪讨厌你”
好了，以后不要再是哭包了~

夜来临了...一天也即将来到它的尽头~
收拾好~去透透气
~我心在想着你~

乌云阻拦太阳给于地上最后的指引
但我深信在那过后一定会有更美的情景
~我等待你~

下雨了~
这盏路灯像是我内心里失望中微小的盼望，也是黑暗中的方向
~不会放弃~

是吧！只要心里持有盼望，信心, 美好的结局就在不远方!!!
人生抉择也如此，一切都在于你的心态

可能有一段时间不会更新布落格，俊爷很忙~哈哈~再见了

2009-03-08T23:03:00.004+08:00

生活思想
反复思想到底人类要怎样来确保自己的人生不偏差正确的路。。。
是跟随宗教的真理教导吗？或许每天能过得开心精彩就是正确的道路？
还是只要跟着在杂乱的社会生活方式以及他人的影响活下去就对了呢？

相信许多人都担心着自己选择步行的路是不是正确以及最好的，对于未来没有保障，
在这道德沦陷败坏的世界里毫无方向一天一天得活着，担惊受怕，试问平安在哪呢？
真正的福乐和永生是否全在？

你或许会说“管他！我活得开开心心就好了!!!”
你确定这快乐能满足永久吗？你能守护这短暂的时光吗？
当它有一天离去时，你还能那么把握地说出同样的答案吗？
别再消耗宝贵的光阴了!!!去寻找唯一的解答吧!!!

2009-02-28T20:29:00.005+08:00

Hello, everyone~ i wonder what day had you guys been through today..
Well, most people should be longing for the arrival of Saturday after saddling out with hectic task every single week...
The best way to get rid of those constant stress temporarily would be some instant entertainment and leisure time with buddies and families~~
As for me, after a weak insipid hot coffee in the morning, i took a rickety bus mini to Taipan to meet my friends and settle all the billing payment...then headed back to attend a educational course..
Although the course may spent half day of my precious Saturday and plus my nostrils need to bear with the stench from the crowded in the lousy bus, my excitement was not dampened... (i admit their body smell really make me retching beneath boiling and scorching sun...Please la..use dextol next time)
Brace up!!! (i won't further elaborate my day..as u guys ll get dry soon)
Yet.. the speaker lead me to whirl many thoughts in my head and plied us with questions about reality..
对你来说，什么是人心...我认为它就像一个无底坑...永远满足不了...
事实上，真正的快乐不是愉快的经历，不是财产或权力，而是明白我生存的目的。这才是真正快乐的来源。

~明白你生存的目的~

i totally concur with the speaker~~ i hope it can make u review on ur definition of life...
try to meditate..

猪猪口头禅

成俊 “真的假的” or “真是的！”
Tzyy Ren “你喜欢啊！”
Li Wei “swt!!!!”
Shi xian “不知道”“随便”
Yeong her “白痴啊你!” “hohohoho~~”

(Ps: 等待~~）

词穷

2009-02-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

我到底有几次被要求把我的故事重讲一遍？
好累哦..回顾从前...似乎在自豪中存留些遗憾...悲思中浮现些喜乐...矛盾~~
当朋友们在一旁大谈论篇，我直起身来，走向阳台，微笑了.
那是一个对着远方发出的微笑，我沉默着回想...
活在这个逐渐沉沦的美丽世界，已经有二十年了...
对于人生大道理，心里也有很深的感触...
看见你们一个一个忙碌地拼搏赚钱，买车买房...一些则在学业上考取优良的成绩...
而我事到如今追求些什么...没有指引的方向...我缺乏信心...HAIZ...人为什么这么软弱呢？
想一想...爸妈..你们真得很了不起...佩服...我要向你们看齐...^_^
这一年我开始对college life 感到乏闷...不如以前般hyperactive...主要是因为疲倦于太多的活动，也不太想参与一些年纪比我小的同学...I had totally isolated from my previous badge...they ord into real uni life...and i still cram all the basic foundation stuff...stupiak...
夜店生活也停止了...不想消费在这种空虚，奢侈的短暂快乐...
还有。。。。。。（不想多说）
可能是因为近来经常和可爱又可恶，一点儿都不单纯的猪猪家族成员相处...
个性也变得怪怪（幼稚了），更是“冷”得比冬天的雪地还要冷...
搞到我有点双重性人格...不过还是很感谢他们呢...没有他们的陪伴... 在Inti就无聊了许多...
自己隐藏的本性以及"冷"爆点也不会被发掘...
此时我有些慌张，因我对于接下来的故事情节少了些保障和把握...希望有人给我心灵的寄居
是否它会如我幻想中童话故事的滨纷色彩，以皆大欢喜的结局来完成...
未来视线模糊，我该怎样continue描写我专属的故事情节。。。。充满了好奇。。。
我的心洋溢着一种新鲜感。。。复杂的情绪。。。
。。。。。。。。。
。。。。。。。
我终究还是词穷了..........

远离寂寞边界

2009-02-23T23:17:00.006+08:00

Most of the people ll often express their feeling of loneliness to their parents, school peers.. complaining how miserable is his/her social interaction...no friend who stand by through thick and thin...or even lend a shoulder to cry on...
What actually is loneliness? In my opinion, loneliness is not just a matter of being alone. U may find that the monk with his vow of silence in the temple may not feel forlorn; the individual in an uncongenial group may feel very lonely indeed...The richness of life lies in the companionship of a person with whom one has an emotional connection and perhaps a physical relationship...
YOu may feel in such a way because of bereavement, have lesser true friends to communicate with..In other way..these prime causes can be easily explained as the deficient of love and caring shown by the people surrounding to you...
You may be hoping hugs , immediate comfort and accompany of someone in the very moment..
It is indeed a difficult task to figure out what actually is the remedy for loneliness...
Perhaps, you are the only person who know the cure on your own...after all, it's from you inner emotion due to outside pressure n influences..
After valentine this year, i heard a lot of ppl saying that they are lonely...they saw themselves as the pathetic person..hmm... loneliness are surely smthg that ppl try to get rid of...
Lonely=> Depressed= >Slow self esteem= >Negative view=> Boring and meaningless world

Yet what would i say is to open your heart for accept and meet everyone... till one day u may realize actually you are a lovely person and you seem to be rejected many opportunities for others to care for you before that... is it so? i don't know..
Yet One thing for sure..there should be No more loneliness for all of us!!!
Happiness is smthg u need grab, not to wait for...

~远离寂寞边界~
~~快乐就在不远处~~
What a wonderful world

Hope there will owes a broad smile spread over your face^_^

恰似你的温柔

2009-02-21T18:03:00.007+08:00

今天无所事事的闷热午间，突然心血来潮想要弹起“歌儿”
拿起那沉默已久的木吉他，手指们像看见旧而不见舆薪的朋友
兴奋地在铉上寻找着回忆，弹指之间的声乐带动了沙沙的歌喉
当我翻着我的吉他歌谱时，一首经典的老歌吸引了我。
这也是我昌盛老大教我的第一首浪漫歌曲。。。
更是我学会的第一个吉他谱。。。
“恰似你的温柔”

某年某月的某一天, 就象一张破碎的脸.
难以开口道再见, 就让一切走远.
这不是一件容易的事, 我们却都没有哭泣.
让它淡淡地来, 让它好好地去.
到如今年复一年,我不能停止怀念. 怀念你,怀念从前.
但愿那海风再起,只为那浪花的手,
恰似你的温柔.

描述着分手后的往昔和思念。。。
它也让我想到自己和身边朋友曾经的恋爱。。。
停顿。。。。
这种温柔我也希望能从那个傻乎乎的可爱野蛮女孩感受到。。。

2009-02-19T18:59:00.004+08:00

wilson, yeong her, shi xian, li wei, tzyy ren, me

Woo..Proudly introduce 小花

The girl posting a "peace"... second one counting from behind~~

Although she often acting silly, emo-ing most of the time, teasing ppl(edison u r stupid!), she is definetely not a hypocritical friend with ulterior mind..neither a boring person... Her cool face may make u think she is unfriendly..nope...
she actually possesses a sense of humour which i look for in friend..
She is one of my friends who can see the funny side of things, who is not dull and can make me smile in even the difficult situations...
u see life would be unbearable without a friend i can share jokes with...i just love the way she "hohohoho"
Don't feel emo lo..
above all the friends in my pic..are my sincere and faithful in college..

(Third version)

~ Love Will Thoroughly Remain ~

TiME to change

2009-02-19T17:14:00.004+08:00

Test 1 done since last week...
Back to slow pace life again with lesser tension tangling around...relax
Nevertheless there is ll be no end for the existence of stress till your last breath..
so why need to feel depressed and complaining about the tough days we been through..
after all, choosing the right attitude to live for is the only way that will make us a better life...
positive mind, objectively view, rational, brilliant social interacting skill...is wat i'm nagging bout
appreciate everything and never ever take smthg for granted (i owes bear in mind)

hmm... philosophy really is the interesting subject to learn..
it challenges our most basic fundamental belief of our culture and life which we had been follow for years without asking why is it so... for instances..
Do u really think there is a self,so called "soul" inside you? or it just a biological, chemical reaction
Is the soul material or immaterial, mortal or immortal?
Are the laws and regulations that we obey is truly a right guide for the society, or it's just a method to sustain the benefits of the higher classes citizens... if not...why we still following it and put under control of the "human-making" laws..after all...human often act out of self-interest..

why i'm crapping all these school stuffs...mainly because i start to relieve, think of my past life, future... is everyone born with a purpose in earth... what really is the dream we had... is it the consciousness we had in another dimension...
well...there is not a standard answer for this world... right or wrong ..true or false..
oopss...is getting dry here..i think..XD..hahaha...

okok...i just wan to say that..every single thing we did every moment is eventually affected our LIFE... and LIFE is main goal or reason why we struggle hard in this world...
so learn to live a wonderful life with no regret la...
why wasting time doing smthg meaningless and stupid event...think of yourselves n others..Brooze and nasty smell are coming out from the bone of all the bastards, punks, smugs, useless fool... It's time to change your life!! before it's too late...(ps: for some of my friendsXD)
(For those buddy)Of course, i not a mental counsellor or social advisor... but it's for your own good...for your own..dude... the sun is shining and the world is beautiful out there ..friends...^0^

YAhoo!! Life is Great!!!

I juz LOVE CNY!!!

2009-01-27T21:30:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

(dun feel like writing..kinda busy now..hehe..yet really wish to share with you guys this wonderful reunion moment and joyous festival..probably next time..hope all of us do enjoy ourselves with all the feats, junk foods, free beverages, lot lot more...and treasure the time with our family, friends and relatives..meanwhile dun forget to give thanks to the true blessing from God...miss u!!)

2009-01-21T21:45:00.005+08:00

Share a event held in our college..
Yesterday Chinese Culture Society(CCS) organized a function of celebrating 2009CNY
Called " MOO MOO Festival"...quite a creative idea...
Although the weather is bad, the enthusiastic of participants didn't seem to be reduced and the tickets were finished selling...b4 the event began,there was already fall down light rain.. and i predicted correctly ...there was a downpour in the middle of the show...we were forced to move to "Plan B" venue in concourse...
if i not promise ”小甜“ to see her show..i definitely wont go for it...
Well after the intima president gave her speech, the event finally got off with performance of cheering leader...ever though there was some mere error occurred yet it won the audience's loud applause..can be counted as a spectacular starting..
next there had some hip hop dance, chinese yoyo(扯铃）, games and of course lucky draw which was the part that all of us waiting eagerly for...
the top prize is the LG limited edition ICE CREAM PHONE...woo!!!
YES...as usual i am not the lucky person that can win any prize...haiz..but never mind..at least i'm been given "Follow Me ROMANTIC Moisture White Lotion, Deodorant and Oil COntrol cleanser" (it was given to everyone as sample XD)..HEHE..
My friend KK's ticket number was drawn in the very beginning of lucky draw section... B4 we manageD to respond, he ord ran to the stage..haha..the way he acted really funny...in the end..what he gt is a normal pen with no ink in it..HAHAHA..
真是一场欢喜一场空`...
the highlight of the event is the performance of 朱浩仁（Astro 2nd runner up)...his main song "巧克力" was recently promoted and can hear while listening to FM988..
" 巧克力..巧巧巧克力...lalala"...here were some of his pictures taken that nite...

生活思想

很多时候当遇见,见识到一些有才华,本事以及能力的人
就是在某个领域极有天赐的神童，天才。。。
可以是在领导能力，学业，音乐天赋，舞蹈技术等等
我们都会开始羡慕,妒嫉, 想要学习,并且以他们作为榜样
甚至会有一股劲儿，斗志想要达到他们的等级，超越他们。。。
然而在努力奋斗，锻炼自我，in amidst of pursuit these goals...
困难,挫折,阻碍终会轻易地使我们绊倒, 顿时感到目标离我们好遥远,灰心,想要放弃...
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试着想想...会不会是我们选择了过多的梦想来追求 ...导致我们一时之间无法专注在特定的目标...我还记得一名作者说到..."十个60分, 不如六个100分" ...
i find it very true... 如果我们同时间扛起许多负担,做每一件事都半吊子,别人只不过看你是个"做事60分的人", 相反的，若集中筋力，把份内的事先做的尽善尽美，别人看待你，就会是个“做事100分的人“
As a christian~~~i would say :
If u envy of their skills,capabilities, abilities and achievement, it's normal human nature..it's nothing wrong about it but try to meditate deeply..
After all we are people of GOD and are created through Thy miracle hand and breath based on Thy image.. Don't you think we may somehow also be blessed in certain aspects which we have yet to discover... Just remember that no one is perfect in the eyes of God coz we are sinner... we all have weaknesses in particular areas... we not need to become supreme excellent to achieve our loftiest dreams.. .we just have live out in God's will, not ours... Give thanks for everything we owe right now~~

2009-01-17T23:04:00.004+08:00

Now it's just a week before Chinese New Year(my favorite festival among all^_^)
With all the "Dong Dong QiangX2" songs played, pretty bloody red lattern and cny ornament hang on the shops for sale really enhance the atmosphere a lot..
since 2009 cny around the corner, i believe our self satisfaction heart will begin triggering up and yearn for the purchase of brand new cool garments and fashion accessories...it is unadoubtedly...ever last year thr was a severe economic crisis..
most of the ppl dun seem to be influenced by it..=,="".. The shopping complex are so damn crowded...full of people.. i'm talking about time square and sungei Wang..
or maybe becoz of the variety of choices of goods, convenience and congenial environment..
i found the idea of kl ppl for chinese new year is quite weird..
why they think chinese Christian don't celebrate CNY...what make them think so???
Hey!!CNY is a festival celebrate by whole chinese communities...our own culture
Nothing to do with religion...Gt it?!=.=
This year, i'm looking forward for the arrival of CNY eagerly because wont able to celebrate with family and friend anymore in few years time due to the education in US... Hmm..precious reunion moment with families,, i gonna treasure it..
6six days to go>>>

生活感触~

看到好友们一个接着一个的离开到不同的“停留站”。。。
时间也慢慢得带我远离那还想再回味的欢乐时光。。。。
在家里的两位“老人家”可能很少时间陪陪你们顶顶嘴了。。。
在外国的哥哥们也不可能再和你们争吵，抢东西。。。
在家乡的中学死党，密友也没多少机会再一起尽情地玩耍，相聚。。。
在团契里一同经历无数可笑，沮丧，美好时光的朋友也离去，剩下我和新契友相处。。。
在学院的同学们好像有一份亲密，又有一些话题的欠缺。。。
在心里爱的人，想完成的目标，增进自我的坚决，能力已占据我的思想。。。
在脑海里出现的是以前回忆的片段，预测的情况，幻想的幸福生活。。。
这时有点感伤地跟以前的本体挥别。。。
因为知道人只能不断地让自己保持在进步，成长的状态下。。。
痛改过错。。。从旧人变新造的人。。。
该像个男人为自己的未来打算了。。。至到那天的来临。。。
我会努力的，有意义地活下去。。。

2009-01-11T22:57:00.003+08:00

Feed back what was being done since last week...
think..think..think...hmm...nthg much..but able to become closer to one of my friend (FY)..hmm..make me feel good...yet in some places and some times, the hypocrisy i witnessed soured my mood...really can't trust someone so well and fall into the friendship too deep...more likely to be used by them for their own benefit...always pretending and acting cute..really sick of you...(sry..scolding someone)

recently i always hanging out with FY(my junior from high school)...
from our conversation...i realize thr is really smthg call destiny... it's so coincidence...(long story...lazy to type here)... after all..the world isn't that huge rite... 缘分！

Hmm...i had asked myself many questions...am i going to achieve my "goal"...or my loftiest dreams are destined to be dashed... looking to the sky with a nice bowl of candu on the hand and FY sit beside me...feeling complicated...i still consider a infant in this competitive world...yet i believed my weakness will be perfected in christ's strength....
meanwhile...someone whom i neglected sometimes and care most appeared in my mind again... b4 it's vanished ..i yearned that on the next moment i can see you smiling and i ll smile because of you ...ever it is just once...

spiritual exercising and maturity of mind are what i focused on and tried to revamp myself to be a better man...since i notated as “没正经” “爱开玩笑”for long time ever though i really serious that moment...my friend can hardly differentiate when i m 正经..it's really terrible...hahaha...time to change..hahaha..

tired lo..2mrw Monday again...blue monday.. 8am class to 4pm non stop...without any break...walao...it seem that coffee and lenglui are my only "antidote" during the class..hehe
sleep first..ciao

2009-01-04T21:02:00.001+08:00

Congratulations , you are...

Jeff Ooi of www.jeffooi.com

You are humble, mild-mannered yet wise. Your knowledge is vast as an ocean, but when confronted with an issue you are passionate about you are tough as a mountain. You have an aura of style, quality, excellence surrounding you that cannot be denied. In a way, you are a rebel, but that's because you are always willing to help out your peers by challenging authority without asking much in return. People respect you. You are a natural born leader, people stop to listen when you speak, and follow you wherever you go. You also have a little bird.

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

1.1.2009

2009-01-01T11:50:00.003+08:00

First of all, i would like to greet u all a happy brand new year..
Times really fly...
Yesterday was the last day of 2008...
i reflected back every thingy i did n encounter this year..
i wonder had i obtain my goals for 2008..did i complete my schedule plan for 2008..hmm...i give myself 60%..
i have nothing to regret of...and give my sincere thanks for my merciful, loving God..
For all the blessings, grace and guidance...at least i still a breathing man here..hehe
no disaster, catastrophe or upheaval fell onto me and my family...what else can be so blessed than safety...^_^

Back to 31 December 2008..
i must say it was an excited, fun, tiring and tedious day..
There were plenty of events held in different places,especially all the pubs, clubs, and shopping mall... as for me, woo..activities from morning till midnite 2am.. jump to night time~~~~wee~~~
After attending the church thanksgiving dinner, i went to meet crystal..watch the karaoke singing competition...i found out that Bintulu actually gt many talented singers...i mean it..really geng..impressive...
Next next...we went to "biggest" shopping mall in Bintulu (probably 1/10 area of midvalley..haha..kelian)..it was so crowded here since 7pm...we hang around the boutique n food court..(hmm..wat i realized here was Bintulu actually gt many lenglui..hahaha..XD)..NO BAD! PROUD OF BTU!..haha
Manage to meet a lot of secondary friends n cousins..waa.. miss u guys le...
anyway..the funniest part came when there left 10sec b4 1.1.09,
all the people's eyes aimed on the balloons which were placed on the nets above in the center of the mall..there was a lucky "catch" event...inside the balloons were the money, empty ppr and free hand phone brochure...
10..9..8...7...6...5..4...3...2...1...Woo!!!! HapPy New Year!!..
AARGHH...people squeeze here and there...the situation is messy..all the people hoped to grab as much as balloons which fall down on that moment... haha..as for me.. gt nthg in the end..juz stood on main position with chai..STOP PUSHING ME!!! DISCIPLINE PLS!!!THAT BALLOON IS MINE!!!...
hahaha...blalalala...soon we went to the level 4 car park balcony to watch the firework performance..hmm...i juz hoped the person stood beside me is my gf ..not stephen and chai..hahhaa..jkjk..nice...
before we headed bak to home, we try 2 find ourselves a nice place to yamcha 2gthr with barbara,beverly and 5s4 ppl.. woo..everthough it was ord 12.30am.. but all the pubs,cafes,and restaurant were fulled of people...(i juz stop here la..stop crapping)..anyway i hv fun...
i juz hope this year will be an excellent and wonderful year for all of us.. God bless us.. specially greet my friends who study abroad a happy cow year!! rejoice!!

2008-12-21T20:49:00.003+08:00

woo...Christmas is coming soon...Jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way!!
recently i received christmas cards from my dear piglet members..thx u very much^_^!!
now only left Yeong Her, Tzyy ren...will post a blog bout the cards soon..
Besides that, i also received some gifts from my fellowship and friend in hometown..
hahaha..not some expensive stuffs but i find them quite interesting..

AS u can see...there are one original christmas cd package(with one angel key chain), one crystal christmas tree, some cute marshmallow, candies, and two boxes of tissue papers!!.hahaha..

i love these marshmallow..So cute..i wonder who bought them for me..i decide to keep it without eating ..haha..XD

Mum home make delicious tang yuan!!!!..colorful and pretty rite

Gap to cross over

2008-12-20T23:24:00.005+08:00

Hmm...tonight i would share some topic about communication...
Many of the times we felt that there is a broad gap between us and some people
..it can be the senior adult, parents, siblings, friends n so forth.. The gap which we find it's barely able to conquer and cross over..
Soon we may feel it's not big deal..after all it may be just a piddling matter to care of..what for we do anything to revamp the issue..what i learn from the past...the effect can be devastating and lead to more social problem..which we actually know deep inside our heart...
As for me...i must admit that my friends are closer to me compared with my family..
The only family member whom i will share my big and small is my mother...no need to mention my dad and bros...there is less than hundred sentences we talk in one year... cham ma..hahaha...so i start to think of the situation i may probably encounter in future...no doubt..it would be a sad and lonely scene to picture...TT
Flash back...i remember an famous author(施以诺）mentioned b4 in his book...

(type with chinese words..easier to understand)

沟通，实在是最难修，也最需要修的科目，弄不好很可能会酿成第啼笑皆非的状况或是抱憾众生的误会。
沟通这玩意儿酷似”高尔夫球“或其他球类。
第一，要看清楚竿洞的位置：
不能随挥杆。在我们表达理念时，要抓住重点，真正论点，不要把毫无相关的事凑在一起。

第二，要拿捏适当的力道：
挥杆时有时要轻些，有时要重些，讲究的是“巧”，而不是靠蛮力！沟通要拿捏适当的语气，不要一味只想靠fierce, 靠冲，靠气势。。在口上取胜，说话温婉一些，巧妙一些，将使你的社交更无往不利。

第三，要有足够得的耐心：
一场高尔夫球赛下来可能得花上半天的时间在球场上待着，沟通何尝不是如此？特别是劝化人，听人心事，开导人时。需要你的耐心！让别人花点时间和空间咀嚼你的话，不要期望他人立刻明白或对你的言语表态，认同。

i think if we acquire these communication skills or attitude... we may discover that after all a step to interact with one person doesn't seem as difficult as it thought...Yet i find out that one more thing we lack of is the courage to make the first move...勇气！！maybe as time passing by, we will realize and learn from experience...or we may feel regret for not fixing this gaps..without knowing what is the consequences..

Christ + Celebration = Christmas

2008-12-17T23:06:00.006+08:00

With Christmas around the corner, it can be seen that Christmas tree and beautiful ornaments are decorated all over the streets, stores, and houses. It is a joyous and warm season for Western countries people..
Yet does everyone know what is the true reason we celebrate Christmas annually on 25th December.? As for the atheists, it’s nothing more but the hectic season when the Santa Claus and his eves are busily fabricated the toys which the good children hope for in the letters and try to add to the gaiety of the celebration by granting all their wishes. Or it is the wonderful gala moment for family gathering around the table to indulge the scrumptious turkey meal.
Since past few years, the word “Christmas” is slowly subverted by the term “Xmas” either in the greeting cards or email cards where “Christ” had been taking out of “Christmas”. Some Christian may grouse that Jesus our lord has been censored out of his own “birthday” and decry the use of the abbreviation "Xmas" as some kind of blasphemy against Christ and Christianity.
This misunderstanding and fear mongering about the use of "Xmas" is not a new phenomenon.. I myself as a Christian understand their sensitivity who worry about the perception Xmas may give for those unbelievers. To be honest, I never thought of the meaning of Xmas and also don’t know why was Xmas. It can be Amas, Omas or ever Emas. So I decide to “google” it.

It is what the article written:

“Abbreviations used as Christian symbols have a long history in the church. The letters of the word "Christ" in Greek, the language in which the New Testament was written, or various titles for Jesus early became symbols of Christ and Christianity. For example, the first two letters of the word Christ (cristosV, or as it would be written in older manuscripts, CRISTOS) are the Greek letters chi (c or C) and rho (r or R). These letters were used in the early church to create the chi-rho monogram (see Chrismons), a symbol that by the fourth century became part of the official battle standard of the emperor Constantine.
Another example is the symbol of the fish, one of the earliest symbols of Christians that has been found scratched on the walls of the catacombs of Rome. It likely originated from using the first letter of several titles of Jesus (Jesus Christ Son of God Savior). When combined these initial letters together spelled the Greek word for fish (icquV, ichthus).
The exact origin of the single letter X for Christ cannot be pinpointed with certainty. Some claim that it began in the first century AD along with the other symbols, but evidence is lacking. Others think that it came into widespread use by the thirteenth century along with many other abbreviations and symbols for Christianity and various Christian ideas that were popular in the Middle Ages. However, again, the evidence is sparse.”

In this beautiful season, I hope to remind all of you that Christmas is the day when we celebrate the birth of Baby Jesus in Bethlehem who “humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross”. We all are sinner and our bodies only become perfect when accept Jesus as our Savior. So from now on, hope u guys have a better understanding of the celebration.(^_^)
Here I would like to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas DaY!!

夜沉醉

2008-12-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

夜深了想累了
開不了口的激情
期待那一次的勇氣
在你身上尋回初戀的自信
化解思念你味道的苦滋味

猜不透會不會
曾經有的感覺已變過去式
害怕時間帶走這份緣份
聽見了嗎右手心的孤單
在這個時刻
唯獨把童話故事畫在腦海里
讓自己能快樂一些

慢慢的回憶著
你草莓般甜美的笑容
可愛似小豬的臉蛋
等不到從你遠方傳來的短信
手機里的照片是我唯一寄託

天亮了醒悟了
只希望能像云上太陽一樣燦爛
想你的痕跡依然殘留在黑眼眶
對你的好感不會隨著黎明的來臨而改變

Self communion (Back again)

2008-12-14T00:13:00.004+08:00

Hallo, it has been quite a long time for me to write something in this webpage. I wonder how all of you doing? Miss all the kl friends..Hope u guys have the wonderful holidays with family and friends. Apparently I had been enjoyed and suffered from my holidays. Well, the parts I’m enjoying so much were the time I hanging around with intimate friends, traveling within this beautiful country, and best part of it is no more fxxking annoying alarm ring tone waking me up in the early morning, which means I have unrestrained privilege at home and can just sleep like a dead man in the sweet and cozy air conditioned bedroom. About the terrible parts of it I don’t wish to have further elaboration- gone deeply into “debt”, realize that my hometown really is a boring place to live at (no much entertainment provided), need to help my family business ever during holidays, and undoubtedly again here comes my mother nagging for all the big or small matters everyday. Even though I had almost completed all my holiday schedules, I still find there is a missing part. Hmm…is my holiday going to end meaninglessly in this way?

As it is too free to do anything in my hometown, I start to spend some times in reading and meditation. Some questions surfaced as I tucked in my bed. What my future’s going to be? Am I choosing the right path? What really is the God’s will? Questions plague me and some of my friends. I can’t figure out what is correct and definite answer. No signs or sound from God answering my prayers yet. However I believe faithfulness is the only attitude that I need to cling to. I remembered one article written that disappointments and hopeless feeling can be holy moments when we are stepping outside our own reality and embrace God’s. Somehow, he entices us to broader horizon, the fuller hope and calls us to hope in more that we see now, and to believe. It’s all a matter of time.

Now when I’m standing at my balcony and looking at the sunset, I feel extremely relieve with less grumbling, complaining but more heart of thanksgiving. After all, I’m blessed. ^_^ (time for dinner)

Piglets Members~

2008-11-08T21:43:00.010+08:00

WAnt To introduce my new "family members" =猪猪仔之音乐家

死猪,Emo Pig/小花, 笨猪/小不点，傻猪，黑猪/小黄

i don't know what this "Piglet"call..so just name her 美死猪temporarily..XD

白纸和网子

2008-11-08T19:19:00.006+08:00

Here is the easy experiment u can try or just simply imagine it. Now what u need are one powerful electric fan, a piece of white A4 paper,and a net. Then hold the paper tightly with both hands and face it to the electric fan. Switch on the fan and adjust the power to the highest. Guess what may happen to the paper...Undoubtedly it will be torn... 破掉 Next repeat the experiment by replacing the paper with a net with constant variable or condition. Everthough both paper and net is blown by the same wind power, the net will probably just wave in the air and will never torn.

The difference between the paper and the net, is nothing more but, 白纸硬生生地接下了每一个冲击在它身上的空气粒子，而网子却让大部分的空气粒子穿拂而过，所以白纸容易因声破裂，而网子却安然无恙。

想一想，每个人活在世上都会遭遇到很多无端的批评与偏激的攻计，面对“强力的风扇”，你会选择当一个白纸？仰或作一面网子？面对那些不堪入耳的恼人言词，你的处理方式是硬生生地全部记下？还是宽容地将它们无数忘过？

诚心地建议你，面对别人的三言两语，要学习用“三不政策”来潇洒地将它们扔诸脑后：
1）（不）斤斤计较
2）（不）胡思乱想
3）（不）反唇相几

(hope this article will make u learn to forgive, forget and forever happy)
(adapted from 心灵小点心3）

Holidays=Free=Hang Around=Spend Money= Mee Goreng

2008-11-06T23:41:00.016+08:00

woo~woo~woo~Finally the day i hd been longing for--> 3NOVEMBER..arrive..
TWO MONTHS OF HOLIDAYS!!!
haha...temporarily get rid of the lecturer's nagging, hectic coursework and
With the end of the final exams of this semester, the subject that inadvertently cropped up among our(me, piglets family) online conversation almost every day was what we planned to do the day after...Undoubtedly as normal teenagers like us..shopping complex n ktv will always be the main destination...

3nov~~Venue: Nandos in Subang Parade and Sunway Piramid
Well, we're having our lunch here...nthg much to say bout it...in fact..my purpose of this trip was to do some survey about the prices of YAMAHA accoustic guitar..coz plan to buy new one...(ps: if anyone gt any idea whr can buy it at the reasonable price..pls tell me) At night, i took the rickety mini bus to sunway piramid to do some groceries shopping and bought some new shirts... haiz.. i'm too free now...Do what next?

4nov~~ Venue: KLCC (kinokuniya)
Woke up early in the morning..after a quick, invigorating bath..MAy, Emo PIG and me followed shi zhu's 小白to kelana jaya stesen and went to klcc by LRT... it was lucky for shi zhu who did not adhere to traffic regulations being issued summonses..but no pro at all...i trust his driving skill ..i dun ever wear safety belts when he drive...it substantiates the fact of he is the pro driver..so far so good...^^

...at around10.40am, we reached the destination...n then helped to Emo PIG to find the POS office to deliver a important document to her Sister's client..haiz..first time i saw ppl that feel very nervous when sending a item...haha...so funny... furthermore..it's her first time to use ATM CARD to withdraw cash =.=""...i must say "WOO~~"..but NVM la.. like wat the books which we read in the bookshop say "everyone will have his or her first time to do smthg"...understand..haha..
Soon., we strolled into a food court inside KLCC for our mid-morning breakfast...the food here is fine and undoubtedly expensive a little compared to other places.. After that we proceeded to our main destination (Kinokuniya) to read some books... i was kinda proud that they still came to bookshop after final exam yesterday..haha.. really hardworking bookworms..

Sitting in an inconspicuous corner of the shop, we spend some own sweet time reading the novels, comics, motivation materials.... but within 1hours...our passion gone and decide to go the park nearby...this is so called 五分钟热度...hahaha...However 天不作美..it's raining cat and dog outside..=,="" spoil my plan...WAT CAN WE DO NOW..HAIZ...after some window shopping, once again..we headed back to the food court to order some snacks (PIzza and drinks) while waiting the rain to stop...Fortunately, i brought one set of pocket card along... we spent our time by playing blackjack, chong dai di, and 七级猪...initially it's quite fun Ting Dong Ting Dong...But when Time's passing by..ZZzzz..we all started to get bored and sleepy..around 5.30pm....we decided to go back home...

OMG!!!Why so many passengers in LRT stesen..damn crowded...waited will dead lo..
after one and half hours, we finally arrive at kelana jaya...

Not again!!! we were forced to stuck in the rush hour traffic jam after office hours...Losing patient...our car moving like snails...it is one phenomena in KL which i hated most... ACCOMPANY with Jay CHou's songs on the road...i finally reached my lovely house at 8.30pm...by the time i m tired and grateful for a night's rest.

(because of the uncontrolled spending of my savings in BANk during this few months...i will have to eat mee goreng as my dinner...kelian...i only gt one solution.. that is to go sleep so i wont feel hungry)

To the end of October~*

2008-11-03T22:29:00.014+08:00

It's had been quite a while not updating my blog..
hmm..wat can do...October is a month full of assignment deadline n exams..
Hectic last minute preparations for the exams have deprived me of my favourite pastime~~especially those outdoor activities..
examination can really be hazardous to one's health...(lost 2kg diao) After all the cramming of the "sleeping pills(notes)" , i really need to unwind and relax.
anyway i'm glad that i manage make it through...n most importantly finals doesn't seem as hard as i heard b4...hahaha..^v^..

31october- first day of my final exams~~~ hmm...the subject tested is Microeconomics
haiz..i must say i a bit disappointing with my performance.. dun hv
confident to gt A anymore..after the ppr finished(5pm to 7pm),we (me,tzyy
ren, may, yeong her, wilson,kk, shixian) went to ss2 to celebrate the
end of their semester. Why do i mention "their" coz i still gt one more
mundane art ppr on next monday(3nov)!! Yet nthg is more important than
having fun..put studies aside first..hohoho..
^_^..after dinner..we proceeded to One Utama for midnite movie...
(My Best Friend's Girl)~~ if u need smthg to remedy ur boredom,sadness..
i highly recommend this movie...it's damn hilarious...OKOK..Next! Around
1.30pm, they (piglets family) still did't want to go back home after
movie...Dun noe why they r so energetic...haiz..真的败给你们..
Hence i suggested that we went to buki jalil park to see night scene..
Seeing the familiar old bench on the park which facing the Bukit Jalil
Stadium had made me feel quite nostalgia..miss the old days~*
Time is 3.10AM now...Just when i thought i finally can went bak for a good night's sleep...they told me "Hey let go to Klang to eat Bak kuk Teh!".. WHAT THE HECK!?!?!?..Crazy!?!?..(for ur information..from bukit jalil to klang takes about 1 hour)...Everthough we did make up our mind to go Klang, tzyy ren and KK sesat jalan and took us to perlabuhan Klang...n in the end we eat none of the pork teh but the 3 hours drive in the highway road...waste the petrol..haiz..Kelian.. Actually all these i only heard from tzyy ren coz i ord slept like a dead man in the car...hahaha..too exhausted.. i really curious what they have done to me when i fell asleep...T^T..Finally i reached home at 5.30AM...OKAY..pls let me hv a nice sleep.. ZZzzzz....

1 Nov 2008- This saturday, my youth fellowship had held an farewell party at Yuan Sheng Steamboat Restaurant for those members who are going to leave EMMCF to further their studies or go back to their hometown.

I'd been asked by my friend Zhen Han(the organizer)to help him to gather up the people. Around 35 to 45 people came..WOO!!.. We hv fun n enjoy ourselves very much..had indulged many delightfully delicious seafood, chicken wings, n variety of foods..Yummy!!..Once more the scene of "Fighting For Chicken Wings" is in the show again...SUPER FUNNY!!!If anyone who had been to that place, they ll know how is the situation..Hahaha.. Then come the must of every happy event... Photo Shoot!!

Here i would like to greet all these friends（Apek tung, Ah qiang,edwin, ling fong, Kido, kathleen, Crystal,James, Eik Ying n...)a sincere Goodbye and wish u guys a happy life whenever u are..in the presence of God's Blessings, Guide and Love.

恋

2008-11-03T19:25:00.005+08:00

我喜欢甜甜的感觉
　　和风细雨似的温柔
　　喜欢这浅浅的幸福
　　心里有种痒痒的感觉
　　
　　我抬头看那蓝蓝的天
　　天空有片淡淡的云
　　那轻柔的云上
　　有我们夜晚留下的泪
　　是爱恋太深的记号
　　
　　我闭上眼
　　沐浴着太阳的光辉
　　幸福的脸上露出幸福的微笑
　　我忍不住伸出双臂
　　拥抱这美好的世界
　　

　　我
　　
　　恋爱了
　　
　　一种甜蜜的感觉
　　瞬间充满心底
　　一种深深地责任感
　　又在心底升起
　　从今天起
　　我要做个幸福的人
　　开始关心衣服和发型
　　从今天起我不再是一个人战斗
　　为着梦想的二人世界开始奋斗
　　就像世界上所有幸福的人们一样
　　
　　我愿意让自己心情的阳光照耀每个人的心底
　　
　　愿你们都快乐
　　
　　永远

2008-10-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

One song can spark a moment;
One flower can wave a dream;
One tree can start a forest;
One smile can welcome a friendship;
One star can guide a ship of sea;
One candle can wipes out darkness;
One step can start a journey;
One word can start a prayer;
One hand scalp can lift a soul;
One life can make a difference;
and one choice can decide a destiny

Tagged by johnson

2008-10-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

1] Have you ever slept in the same bed with someone you liked? Hmm..Yup..But Do nthg
2] Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for?Yeah.. apparently.
3] Where was the first kiss you had with the last person you kissed? In a resort park
4] Who is your last text from and what does it say?From Purple Star. Ask me to belanja her makan^_^
5] Burger King or Wendy's?Wendy`s
6] Latest you stayed up in the past week? 4++a.m
7] Where are you right now?At home.
8] Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Yea..Quite A few..
9] What were you doing at 9:30 last night? Watch movie
10] Are you listening to music right now? Exactly
11] Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today? A girl(xiao fang)
12] What is the 7th text in your inbox say and from who? From the same person i mention above. About meeting in wangsa maju.
13] Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? Nvr think about it. Already very cool..haha
14] How long can you go without your phone? Hmm..is like u asking me to live without my gf or wife..u tell me the answer..
15] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Sieu Xian
16] Who last called you babe/baby? i barely remember..
17] Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?No...
18] Do you know anyone who's married and shouldn't be?No...
19] If your ex said they hate you, you say: i know u hate me because u love me so much...^_^..i'm sorry...
20] Do you curse in front of your parents? Nope
21] What is your current annoyance? Exams and my own capabilities
22] Last time you saw fireworks? oo...31 August(Malaysia Independent Day)
23] Who did you last lay in bed with? My Brother=,=
24] Are you afraid of roller coasters? Ohhh..Come on..No Way
27] Who pissed you off yesterday? Hmm..Nobody..
28] At what age do you plan to be married? 25 to 30
29] Where is your mom right now? i gt no idea..probably dating outside with my dad..
30] What are you supposed to be doing right now? Study eco
31] Are you slowly drifting away from someone? Hmm..i guess so
32] When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty? Last Saturday
33] Are you bored? A bit
34] What girls/guys can you tell everything to? Not hypocritical but trustworthy,sincerity and always there to support me.
35] The last person you talked to on AIM/MSN? Jeffery,Crystal, Xin yu, Kathleen, Ah lun, Yeong her, Tzyy ren
36] Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a N? Too bad..No..XD
37] Can you play guitar hero? hahaha..ya..Woo
38] Do you prefer warm or cold weather? no cOMment..malaysia weather is fine with me
40] Three days in a hotel or NFL game tickets? OF coz..hotel lo..i not fond of NFL
42] Would you rather watch football or baseball? Football
43] Where is your number one person on your friends list? At her condo
44] What's your ringtone? Er Zhou Jun
45] Three things you did yesterday? Studying, Chatting, Yam Cha, Online..nthg special
46] Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? Nope
47] A friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go? Depend on the situation..a good friend i ll nvr let him or her go..
48] Do you ever waste too much time on a someone that treats you bad? In fAct..YesT^T
50] Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Yea..felt so comfortable..
51] What are you doing tonight? as usual..studying, chatting, watch movie
52] Do you know anyone who is pregnant? Yeah..
53] Do you still talk to the person you last kissed? As if now..seldom..
54] Does anyone hate you? not sure..but i hope not..sry aa..Friends..if i being bad, proud n hurt u guys indirectly...forgive me..^_^
55] Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Yes
56] Do you want a small or big wedding? To be honest..big wedding..coz i wan to give my future wife the wonderful n sweet wedding(once only in life).. n i myself gt a lot of relatives n friendsXD
57] Who was the last girl you talked to? Sieu Xian
58] Who was the last guy you talked to? My brother

Friday Lunch...

2008-10-12T01:34:00.005+08:00

Hmm..actually recently i gt nthg much to write in blog ..yet since yeong her request me to write smthg bout the event we went for on last fri..here u go...^_^

yesterday(8 October) i being invited by my friend(crystal)to become her guest for her hospitality course practice..which mean i gt free lunch on that day...however as she's still short of three more person..so i had to find three lucky ppl to accompany..after calling and searching..finally they came to tzyy ren,yeong her and shi xian...

Appetizer...Caramel^^ (4gt wat this dish call)

Ahhhhh...Open Big Big mouth..eat slowly la.."Piglet"

Need to say sorry coz dun noe u guys cant eat beef...luckily i brought some pizza with me..^_^ hope u enjoy my homemade pizza..

Main Course..Roasted Beef witH mUFFIN cake!!! Taste Wonderful! Yummy! but juz a bit to hard to bite..

Well..as we r late for the appointment time for lunch, so we ended up as the last customers in the restaurant..quite embarrasing..when all the waiter and waitress clearing up the mess, arranging bak the table and chairs..only one table in the middle (which is urs..hahaha)..SRY..Crystal..i dun mean to be late..^.^...without eating the dessert..we quickly Broooommmmm ...left the place .. anyway, i hv a great time with u guys...and sry to tzyy ren..i 4gt to let u try the pizza ..haha..tooo rush...

Realizing....

2008-10-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

woo..everything start so unusual from this morning..
when I's on my way to college..encounter a fierce rockweller..WT*.. my heart nearly cAmE out when it barked and trying to run after me..(i think maybe it's a female dog la..hahaha..XD)..luckily gt a rope tying around its neck..Aghh...i wonder wat is in its owner mind.. put that huge "killer" near the path whr ppl usually walking by... then more bad thing happen to me....(T^T)
my eco test only gt 19.5% out of 25%..which can be considered as "idiot" in my class..
Moreover, i juz realized that being tipu by the guy in ss15 Digi centre to subscribe digi postpaid..(lazy to talk in detailed).. now i'd informed that my num ll be deactivated if no further payment is given(walao!!still owe rm150++!!!)..WT*..i pay rm50 every month n still gt so much to handle...haiz..pokai...
at nite..when i worked, i accidentally break some bowls...more importantly is that the total amount of money in the cashier is short of rm50!!(the place i in charge of).. Same thing happen last week aso..lost rm5(although it's small money).. Trust me..i'm qualified and pass the math exams...that's not way i can make the stupid mistaken of giving extra money to customers...So coincidence..On THAt moment, the music played in Pizza Hut is "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter...HAIZ..... now i need to replace the lost in order to balance the account of the shop... i ever lost my samsung earphone n charger...C*B**..who is that stealer?!!..

%#!^#^!$%@%!&^@&$!^*#@&!*@^!*$!&(#@...i really wan to scream out!!!

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Breath..hmm...calm down..now..in this moment..when i refer bak wat i wrote on my recent blog and mediate on God's words...my anxious and frustration feelings are gone..i realized that maybe God hv thy own plan for me... i should be happy that i'm the one who encounter these troubles (not u, he or she)yet still find my way bak to God... If it's turned out to be someone who in the similar circumstance as i'm.. Things might hv become totally different.. somehow i felt that thr must be smthg that God want me to learn~~~could these be the precious experience that change my life completely in particular way or Thy is trying to test my weak n oscillating human nature behavior(attempt to steal)...or it can be aso a punishment for me as the sinner..
In the end, i couldnt find an exact answer or explanation for it but i' m so glad n joyful that i only face the mere incident...not severe illness, death, roped, raped, and i'd the perfect health condition to be employ to work...not the handicap, abnormal body growth...And furthermore i really appreciate that i'm not the one who lost their family and friends and live in the impoverished and war country... and can hv the opportunities to receive high education, kao lui(haha),live a comfortable life ...What else can be so blessing than all these i hv...^_^.. Slowly...my heart is full of passion and joy...After all, it shows that everyone can find the reasons to give thanks to God everthough they're in uphill struggle n terrible situation...

百事可乐

2008-10-07T20:07:00.004+08:00

Recently i read a book which is given to me by Shi yin as the gift..
One article i found quite interesting n can be used as the guideline 4 us in our life..
(For my friend who can read chinese..too bad..i lazy to translate into eng)

"百事可乐"不但是个知名的饮料，更成为E时代人的祝福语。
卡片上，口头上。。。处处可见或听到的“祝你百事可乐“的字眼。
什么意思呢？亦即祝福你，不论碰到什么事情，都是快乐，可乐的。
人虽然不能控制环境，不能保证所遇到的每一件事都可以变得快乐，但我们却可调整心境，让白事竟可乐。
亲爱的朋友，如果你也能用以下三种价值观去面对自己的每一天，我想信你必能使生活中增添不少的欢笑和欣喜：

1）告诉自己，“无事可乐”
人常会为着生活的枯燥乏味而埋怨神，但却转换心境，为着生活的平安无事而感谢神。曾经有一位在车祸中劫后余生的妇女做见证说：“以前我从不觉得生命中有什么恩典，但直到今天我才深深的体会到，能够平静的度过每一天，那是多么
奢华的福气啊！”

2）告诉自己，“小事可乐”
注意过吗？每一天里上帝都会替你安排一些小小的surprise, 在要出去时雨停了；sometimes被老板，师长给垮赞一下。。。or someone u love talk to u...如果你常常细心数算这些令人快乐的小事，喔！你将会觉得值自己真的很幸福！！！

3）告诉自己，“坏事可乐”
请提醒自己，坏事也可以喜乐的！也许你一时之间还看不明白，但等时候到了，必会有说不出的惊喜和感动。。。因为神从不离弃我们。。神应许患难。。都有他的计划。。。

this article really help me a lot either in spiritual or emotional way... let us now give thanks for all the blessing that Lord granted us...Remember these three tips which may lead u to an unexpected happiness...^_^..
Nitez...i go sleep first...

~Pizza Hut~

2008-09-30T19:51:00.009+08:00

During this Raya Holidays,Jacky and i took the advantage ..then went to seek for employment of par timer in various restaurants...well, i dun know why we search in so many places and fill up plenty of application forms... we end up with many calls from the shop's proprietor yet we rejected most of them due to inconvenient working hours.. jacky still go to his position in Subway...
And for me... i hv been hired and work for Mac D(one month ord), Pizza Hut...(not that i gt urgent financial problem...i juz work for fun... gain extra knowledge and experience which i thought to be useful for my future career~food science) furthermore...i gt interview in Star Buck this week...XD..
Here share my experience in Pizza Hut...
well..this is my second day ord.. i must say that's nthg much for me to do instead of serving customers, clean the tables and dishes, chit chatting with my partner, managers, play handphone, take pictures, drink the free carbonated drink, mushroom soup, pizza, salad and ever ice cream(as long as dun let the manager see..haha)...hey..u think i being lazy..No!No!No! it's really free...there are fewer customers... n today i sat thr for 2 hours and do nthg after i clean up all the mess in the upper floor...then u can c wat i do during that moment...see below..

~The place i take charge~

Gyaboo!!!Pizza Ingredients!!!

First thing to learn "greet with Smile"

Fail...i say smile..not act cool..

Better..but macam terpaksa

Aaaa..that's the one..Cheese!!

keep refill my drink..

Moment of Meditation

2008-09-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Teenagers go through difficult periods. Some may be subjected to unpleasant hints concerning their physique while others may have to bear the trauma of being compared unfavorably to their friends and more talented siblings. Recently many people around me encounter the conflict of falling in love with someone who he or she didn’t have the guts or not dare to purpose. Well that’s included me. It seem like there is a deep love waiting for the right and suitable time to pour out. Meanwhile I am glad to witness friendship between my friends develop into another stage of relationship… Maybe it is what they call YOUTH..青春.. It’s also the interesting part of our life… everyone is learning the process of growing up by interacting with the people in the world…sometimes our efforts all come to naught… Feeling of hurt, sadness, disappointment seem to be unavoidable… yet when we look back the past we can still smile, thinking of the sweet, wonderful memories which we hope that they can last forever more. At that time… at that moment… I know deeply in my heart… another door which leads me to pursuit a bigger happiness which I never experience before is waiting for me… maybe there are ever more of them… I just need to wait patiently and cherish what the Lord has blessed me…

Gossip!!! Safe Sex!!! Street Concert!!

2008-09-27T18:09:00.006+08:00

well..there had been a safe sex camp from 24 to 26 september in asia cafe(AC) near Inti College to .. i sure u guys know what's this event about...no need further explaination la...basically is to carry out the message "Guys Behave and Control Yourselves!!!"
then there was an awesome street concert being held in open space behind AC yesterday...girls hot, guys cool, bands rock!!!
i want to keep it short...too much to write..
For further information pls feel free to visit my friend's blog(Johnson)..
24 September

Be Responsible! Here!! Buy Condom from Me!!

Buy One ticket Free Four Durex Condoms

Say "NO" TO unprotected sex!!

26 September

i like female emcree!!!she is hot!!!

Gyaboo!!!Pretty!!!

More to be upload...

Inti Moon cake Festival

2008-09-26T12:38:00.006+08:00

Inti Moon Cake Festival organized by CCS got off to a spectacular start around 7pm at the basketball court and Inti car parking. Yet I heard Yan Huoy said that there are only few “cats” walking around at the beginning…haiz… kelian… Anyway the whole area is illuminated by bright lantern lights giving the whole place a fiesta-like atmosphere. Soon this usually deserted part of the college is turned into a hive of activity. The students sort out and arrange their wares, foods and drinks on their booths. The stalls are strung out in a short line only, where we have booth that sold spaghetti, nice chocolate “peanut candy stick” (I don’t know what it call), cheese hot dogs, carbonated drinks and so forth. Enough to whet my appetite…Of course games booth like Ps3, Xbox 360 stalls, water gun shot are something that cannot be missed. But among all booths, I guess henna booth was the one which received most attention. Later, we (all the people in the scene) had a lantern walk around the school compound. It’s short but memorable…AUP!!!AUP!!! Well, basically this is a charity event… all funds collected will be donated to some organization. I did do my part as a concerned citizen and spend rm10…I’m not being stingy ok… just nothing for me to purchase… I pity Xiao Tian who is one of the committees that in charged of the tickets yet it found that the amount of tickets sold were not equal to the amount of tickets produced. Hope U can settle the problem. Ok lo...write until here…Test’s coming…After an invigorating bath, I needed to cram the Eco notes... Good Night and have a sweet dream…

MAY, YEONG HER, JOHNSON

D.E.N.G.U.E

2008-09-25T18:22:00.010+08:00

Most of my friends will probably ask where had i been for last two weeks.. absent in the exams..didn't online..well..the answer is i being admit to hospital because of low platelet level in blood, high fever, and intense headache.. all these must be due to the "kisses" by the bastard infected mosquitoes at night when i'm asleep..
haiz....
i began my trip to SJMC(Subang Jaya Medical Center) when the report of blood testing show that my amount of platelet to 90x10^9 vl..which normal people is around 150 to 400..hereby i would to give my most sincerely gratefulness to Tzyy ren (my private driver) and Esther (my lovely nurse)..haha..really appreciate..^^..n of coz..my dearest auntie n uncle who take good care of me..

well..from 11 to 19september..wat had i been done in hospital everyday is quite the same..nthg much despite of eat, sleep, watch tv, try to build up the relationship with the nurses XD...hey..hey..i juz being friendly and socialized ..

okok..daily routine...stayed in the claustrophobic air-conditioned room for a week without going anywhr further from my room..
every few hours there will be nurses came into my room to check my blood pressure n body temperature..i would say they really hardworking.. they ever visit me at midnite when i oi oi.. at first, i was shocked when i felt someone touched my hand in the midst of sleepiness ..=,=""..HEY..woke me up b4 u "attack" me ma..i will give full cooperation wan..XD
one embarrassing event happened to me in hospital is when the nurse tried to bathe me.. AHHHHHHH..#$#%^%&%&*!@##%...dun touch me!!! (dun wan to mention the story behind TT...but i dun blame them coz i HAVEN'T take shower for FOUR DAYS due to inconvenience of the syringes injected on my hand..I twitched in pain as the syringes struck my vessel.. when it's done...I felt endlessly relieved. Hope I would have to go through this kind of ordeal again)

anyway..SJMC can be considered as "Five Star Hotel" ..here gt 24 hours nurse caring, astro, automatic comfortable sleeping bad,and 6 meals per day!!(Soups, entrees, accompaniments, condiments, dessert all served well together..Hok Chak!!
the condition is really different from what i had seen in Tv..

at the end..i want to share something..while in the hospital, i witnessed people dying, suffering from the illness, struggle between the line of death n life.. yet there is also reflection of good sides of human nature behavior...

Breakfast~

blood coming out!!nurse!!

gt astro to watch^^

Awana Genting Trip (29-31 August 08)

2008-09-03T13:27:00.011+08:00

Tucked away in the suburbs of bentong is Genting HIghland. Depart from the ss15, Subang Jaya at 1.30pm, i and batch of church members reached Awana Genting after 1 and half hours as there dun hv traffic congestion problem..^_^..nasib baik.. But we could feel the goose-pimples on our arms when the vans went zig-zagging along the winding road.. and the odour of exhausted types due constant brakes on the steep roads up to genting highland really bad to smell.. The resort nestles amidst green fields and rolling hills and is set in cosy and charming surroundings. This place is undoubtedly and idyllic retreat for vacationer, especially those who live in the city areas and constantly breath in "fresh carbon- compound air" .. Cough~~..
After registering ourselves in the counter, we went separately to our own room..as for me(room 17560)..my roomates r timothy, Bi lun, Ming Hui.. i am so glad that our room hv the perfect view of genting highland n the scenery outside is breathtaking...COOL~~.. soon we call out each other and start to explore the hotel surroundings without ever taking a nap..

stable without a horse..suppose to go for a horse riding..TT

Well, wat we saw outside are the creative playground, the golf field, garden that plants different kinds of trees and flowers and a stable without horse(whr we plan to go for horse riding..haiz..maybe too cold here..they went to sleep)... we found out that the indoor games stadium is just located next to the hotel towers.. and one thing that is great about it is we're not need to pay for the sport equipments n rental of the place for any games except for archery and rock climbing. Here gt tennis, badminton, ping pong, and SQUASH!!... Btw..inside the hotel compunds gt large swimming pool, beautiful pool with koi, games station, pubs, clubs, korean, japanese restaurant and spa.........

(borrow your photo..^_^..shin ying)

Around 5.30pm..we decided to go back to our room to hv a shower as the dinner is at 6.30pm and my stomachs started making rumbling noises. Hmm..Cant Wait!!..Let's Go for the Buffet!!.. we had dinner in the hotel's cosy dining area(Restaurant Rajawali)..There are plenty kinds of foods, drinks, and deserts prepared for us to eat..The aroma of freshly-cooked food- rendang, chicken, vegetables, pubbings, cakes, and so forth..too many for me to name..Woo..is enough to whet one's appetite.
same for the Breakfast, lunch and dinner of the next few days..but i'm very disappointed with the lunch of next day..Sucked!!!..Eat sotong, some animal intestines, noodles...nasi lemak..

On 29 August 2008, it's my friend Ke Jie's birthday!!...Of coz there is a HORRIBLE birthday celebration waiting for her.. OO..i am so stupid!! (u may wonder i said so..u find out later).. Our "planner" Li hua ask us to bungkus the cakes n pubbings that left over during the dinner and after we finish our camp function at 10pm.... he gathered us out in the lobby and headed us to the swimming pool where the birthday celebration..(we lost due to his lousy guide to thr=,="") ACTUALLY THE DAY BEFORE IS AMY and My Birthday(28 aug), so he said celebrate together with ke jie..hehehe.. then after blowing off the candles and makes the wishes, we took the pic near the swimming pool area.. (When we suppose to throw the cakes onto ke jie n throw her into the swimming pool)..who know..juz after ke jie was thrown into the pool, i suddenly felt a strong pull behind me...AHHHHHH!!!!... SHSHSHHHH!!!...too late to respond ..i ord in the water..TT.. my new clothes, jeans and shoes all wet..luckily i passed my hp n wallet to my friend before tat.. then The war began..we chasing each other and throw the cakes to each others.....huhhuhuhuhu..Errr...WOO..So cold!!..when the wind blew.. (u guys imagine the temperature in Genting highland).. soon..i felt a bit sick that nite...haha...
(amy, kathleen n my cake)
(group pic b4 i being thrown into swimming pool..the criminal is the one stand on my right)
(Ehh..so cold..i look so pathetic..TT..)
Anyway, i manage to recover the day after...so basically our activities for next few days are juz have fun in genting highland, playing sports, swimming in the morning n afternoon.. at night after camp function, we usually would gather in ones room chit chatting, playing card(truth or dare, 21blackjack), play guitar,and sang together...hmm..very hApPy!!
I really like the atmosphere of the hotel at night, the whole area is illuminated by bright and colourful lights giving the whole place a fiesta-like atmosphere. The night before our camp ended(31aug -Hari Merdeka).. we manage to see the fire works set by Genting Highland from our room...then can hear the band in the pub downstairs singing "Jalur Gemilang".. n there was thunderous applause from the guest... i guessed our celebrations of Independent Day got off to a dazzling start with a different way from usual...

(fireworks in genting highland took from my room balcony..quite nice..)
As it was only once in a blue moon that i could imitate the lifestyle of the rich and famous, we (ah qiang, amy, alan, chan sheng, me and my roomates) strolled into the coffee lounge where we were entertained to music and songs by a band(called Free Band).....in this moment, wat appear to be our topics of conversation are ghost stories and horror movies...haha..it's funny to see the reaction of Amy and bi lun when i shared my story...haha.. soon...it's 2.30am.. we paid the bill and went back to own room to sleep..so..basically it's wat happen in my trip genting highland.. Goodnight lo...i switch off the light lo..Sweet dream..God bless u guys...Friendship 4ever..~^_^~

My 2008 Birthday..\(^0^)/

2008-09-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

28/08/08 is my Birthday.. It's had been a tiring , tedious day for me..
Yet i am happy, jubilant, n appreciate for the celebration by my friends
....ok..here was the schedule for that day..
first, as i stay overnight at my friends house (Ah Qiang, Shirley, Li hua and Bi lun) to discuss smthg ..at 12am sharp they sang "HaPpy BirthDAy To Ux4" to me..a bit shock to learn that they still remember my birthday..then ah qiang belanja me makan at Mak maK Stall near Lagoon Perdana..thank u..^^

at 9am..i went for breakfast with a batch of friends in subang jaya...Dim Sum!!!

then at 11.45am..i went to met my friend from SAM programme last year (Lisa).. We went to the noodles shop （渔乡丸）which she had been missed for so long..n I brought along with Qisti.. bad news..the noodles can only refill once as the price of flour n petroleum increase remarkably..
(after that i went to college to check exam result, to my surprise..i pass the result with flying color ..hahaha..glory n honor to my God.. too bad for some of my friends..their excitement of holidays seem to be dampened becoz of the "Good" result..Gambateh lo..keep it up..

1.30pm...i went to sunway piramid with my old friends ...they held a birthday celebration for me in red box ..haha.. very nice of them...that i dun pay for the entrance fee n the beverage.. Rina, i love ur voice so much.. luv u..wkaka ..as usual..i being asked to sing "Jay Chou" Song ..^_^

then 4pm..i rush bak to ss15 to meet David..coz we're going to meet some bintulu friends (my hometown friend who study in kl).. hmm..he was late..but luckily we managed to catch up the bus to taylors college petaling jaya... too bad..most of them went bak to hometown.. so only me, david, yik wun, Ann(ah biak) , jacky..soon we went to sunway piramid..again.. =,=.. we hv our dinner in charles junior..woo..i spent rm28 for a set of burger meal..haha..4gt wat it call..

until 7.30pm..i quickly went to bbq plaza in sunway piramid..to meet my church friends.. left bintulu friends at charles junior(they playing pocker card thr..sry..bored).. unfortunately.. the place is full n i 4gt to book the seats..so we change to vietnamese restaurant..again..i ate.. (now u can imagine how much i eat that day)... yet..becoz i do have a penchant for sour n spicy food.. so it's quite a nice for me..

then 10pm..we decided to hv a drink at 海螺 pub..second round.. we listen to the song n drink beer..playing cards(haha..i won continuosly for 6 rounds).. a bit drunk now..while waiting for Edwin and connie came bak from mid valley (as they celebrated birthday for my "twin sister" Amy in other place)... we took some pic n chit chatting.. time fly.. n we decided to call it a day around12.30am.. we didnt go Dutch, i hd to pay the bill..haiz.. po kai liao..haha..

Here..i wan to thx all those who bought me the foods n presents...thx u very much..i really appreciate ur guys spending time n gift..friendship 4ever.. (my birthday party to be continued)

1 September

2008-09-01T19:54:00.001+08:00

Hello, it's my first time to blog. ^_^..So let me begin with a simply introduction of myself
I am Edison Lu Seng Chuin(卢成俊)..Born on 28 august 1989 in Bintulu..which means i 19 years old.. Now doing my degree (Food science and nutrition) in Inti College Subang Jaya...
My Property: Err..i'm not born in the lap of luxury.. probably just like most of the people live a
normal but interesting life..try to survive in this selfish n competitive era by struggling to earn money, savings, and lower the rate of rising inflation which concerns all of us...haiz..Blame the inflationary spiral in the country..anyway i am thankful for all i currently owe and i believe God's blessing is more than enough everyday.

My Personal Relationships: I am definitely not an antisocial person. Like to make friends,
regardless of colour or creed. Available or not...hmm..No.. haha.. Already gt someone that is special to me..bling bling.. haha..but who care..XD.. as long as i m not gay..i think u guys ll be relief..^^

My Hobbies: Basketball, Surfing internet, Play Musical Instruments(guitar..n i wan to learn
drum n piano), Cooking, Dance, Singing...n so forth. Btw,I m a captivating story teller..haha..(good in lyingXD..jkjk) i wont say i a man of talents...but surely not a dull person.

My Personalities: i find out this part is the most difficult part to write.. all depend on how people
judge me.. i guess i m friendly, kind,.....okokok...i think i better stop "praising" me in case u guys curse me n shout out F words..haahahhaha...
that's all.. next time i try to narrate in simple, startightforward manner.. hmm.. share my feeling of writing my first blog.. it's like writting an essay..the only different is nobody can gv u the rank of the works..XD.. tata..